Yesterday I watched the final episode of House M.D. after re-watching the entire program - all eight series. I'm guessing anyone that would be bothered about spoilers has already watched the last episode so I won't put a warning. Anyway, in the last episode when House has disappeared for a few days Wilson and Foreman get worried about him doing 'something stupid'.



While I understand the sentiment and reason why that phrase is used, I mean no one wants to say, 'I hope they haven't topped/killed/offed themselves', I still feel uneasy about the wording. It implies that suicide is stupid, because obviously, right? Why would someone want to end something? Of course everyone's life can get better and every situation will one day get better, right? (If you didn't detect that, heavy sarcasm)

As someone who is a sos I am very conflicted over the subject. I am very grateful that I am still here and that I got the help I needed and that my situation got better, but i'm also very aware that not everyone has the means or privilege for that to happen. The only reason I got onto my path of recovery was because my family physically took me out of that situation. We sold our house, split the family for a year and moved away. Not everyone has the money, resources or the support to do that, and even if they did it would not be guaranteed that things would get better. There was always a chance that the same thing that happened in my last town would happen again in the new one. I also know the feelings some might experience before suicide and how - I can't even think of a word to describe the feelings, I guess isolating, terrifying, calm, chaos, hurt, agony and eventually pointlessness - the person feels. I feel strongly that this should not just be dismissed, because I feel that it often is.

People talk about how selfish suicide is, how wrong it is to do 'that' to your loved ones. This gets me so, so angry. The thing that is selfish is making someone stay in a situation that is leaving them feeling like nothing, or hell depending on your beliefs (I'll come on to that in a minute), is better than being alive. Forcing something like the guilt of hurting someone you love, on top of whatever is causing that person to feel suicidal in the first place, is disgusting and just plain wrong in my view. I know many people disagree and they are entitled to that opinion, however I do believe that those who have never experience suicide or attempted suicide themselves, firsthand, really have no place to place the blame.

This post is really all over the place, so I apologise, but I just needed to get my thoughts out. What's your view on suicide?